Am I greedy?

Probably, in fact, theoretically speaking, I'm REALLY greedy.

I'm never satisfied. It's sad to say that I've come to the stage where the maximum level of happiness is not ecstasy, but a neutral reaction. And why? Because the standards I've set have prepared me for either an "Ok, it turned out well" or "it sucks".

But as I've always said, I'm just a young guy, trying to find his own ground. Why can't things just go my way? (And it's really selfish to put it this way, and I know that I'm fussing over the little things in life, while others are going through sicknesses and hunger, but I really just wish for something different, and start doing something meaningful, and something that I like, instead of going through the same routine and process again)

People always say you have to take the opportunities that come your way, I did, but it seems like it's just not meant to be, and I don't get it. It's not like I'm sitting around waiting for things to happen, but why would you do this to me, at the same time when I had this change of mindset. You're pushing me back into a vicious cycle.

Just give me this chance. I need it.